Lukewarm

I have to admit, I wanted to title this blog post “You Never Know Which Direction You Want to Go”. However, I stopped dead in my tracks. God’s plan is not easy to decipher, if I am being honest. Since there were trials and hardships, I took a break from writing for a bit. Mainly because school got in the way of many things.

If I were to do a soul-check right now, I would describe it as a metaphor of room temperature coffee served to Elizabeth by Miss Clara in the movie War Room. Now this Christian film was number one in the box office for a brief period during 2015, and it was a movie about how prayer can be used as a powerful tool in the restoration of a marriage. 

Now, this is a huge struggle. Honestly, my faith cooled a bit throughout the past year, leaving it to be lukewarm. As believers, we are supposed to be on fire for Christ and hate being lukewarm, but to say I have not been lukewarm in my faith would be deceptive and therefore distort the truth. I have been lukewarm because I lost sight of who I was in the process of moving forward after tough times. 

With that being said, I am now in a headspace to where the tough times have made me mentally stronger. There are times where I still have not felt as strong as I would like to be mentally, physically, emotionally, and spiritually. Yet, getting out of the lukewarm takes one step at a time.