An Open Letter to the College Major That Left Me
Dear Education,
I am writing this to let you know that I have moved on. You were a part of my story for two years. Although we shared so many good memories together, you decided that you weren't right for me and left me without any explanation.
However, it is not that simple. With you, I lost a part of myself I could never get back. With you, I had to lie in expense of everything else. You were always first and everything else came second. I did everything to please you, but it is clear that I couldn't measure up to your standards. You encouraged me to lie which led to me losing a scholarship.
I couldn't even be my quirky, funny, and creative self around you. You tried to change me into something I was not for the sake of fitting into your definition of professional. I always felt inadequate around you as I had to walk around eggshells. You put me down through action plans, people, and experiences. People kept asking me to quit you, but I was too invested in you to ever see that I could find what I needed outside of you.
I could have quit you. I would've felt more confident and happy about it, but instead you quit me. Now, I feel depressed and lost. Losing you made me feel more uncertain. So I have questions for you. Why does staying with you feel more secure when I wanted to break up with you? Why do you hurt me so much? Why did you lure me to you only to cause me to feel drained emotionally, physically, and mentally?
So I'm letting you go. I am giving myself the chance to find myself. I am leading myself into something I truly deserve. Thank you for leaving me as you never deserved me in the first place. I am no longer giving you the satisfaction to affect every aspect of my academic life. I'm better off without you in my life and that's why I am writing this.
Sincerely,
Me
I am writing this to let you know that I have moved on. You were a part of my story for two years. Although we shared so many good memories together, you decided that you weren't right for me and left me without any explanation.
However, it is not that simple. With you, I lost a part of myself I could never get back. With you, I had to lie in expense of everything else. You were always first and everything else came second. I did everything to please you, but it is clear that I couldn't measure up to your standards. You encouraged me to lie which led to me losing a scholarship.
I couldn't even be my quirky, funny, and creative self around you. You tried to change me into something I was not for the sake of fitting into your definition of professional. I always felt inadequate around you as I had to walk around eggshells. You put me down through action plans, people, and experiences. People kept asking me to quit you, but I was too invested in you to ever see that I could find what I needed outside of you.
I could have quit you. I would've felt more confident and happy about it, but instead you quit me. Now, I feel depressed and lost. Losing you made me feel more uncertain. So I have questions for you. Why does staying with you feel more secure when I wanted to break up with you? Why do you hurt me so much? Why did you lure me to you only to cause me to feel drained emotionally, physically, and mentally?
So I'm letting you go. I am giving myself the chance to find myself. I am leading myself into something I truly deserve. Thank you for leaving me as you never deserved me in the first place. I am no longer giving you the satisfaction to affect every aspect of my academic life. I'm better off without you in my life and that's why I am writing this.
Sincerely,
Me
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